They have brought out the big guns now. I am on strong,controlled, painkillers and boy do I need it. With still so much to go I wonder how I will cope. Finding eating and drinking enough really hard through the tube. Sleeping is tough because of the state of my mouth and the icky mucus. I will just have to hunker down and look for inspiration where I can. Not much from the Saints last night.
Rachael is my lift to the hospital today. I hope I can be some company. Will need to take various foods and drugs so that I do not get low.
This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. It must not break me.